  Hey C Blog, Thank God for Billie Holiday and Ray Charles! (may they sing together in heaven and tear up the place) They can put things back into perspective of life... forget the rock formations -- I think I can be happy coming back as a feather. But not a dingy piegon feather... Yes, I may get wet and tossed around in the ocean and even pushed up against rocks...but somehow I end up back on shore, dried off by the sun and allowed to catch a breeze once more.
Cre8ting something I've realized is like a test in life...either you let it get you and knock you down, or you take the damn paint brush and get crazy with the canvas like your life depended on it. In other words, perfectionism is way overrated... so why can i never stop going for it with my art and other ventures? :0/ *dang this greentea is kicking with the vanilla candles tonight* btw: Happy Birthday Twisshy Poo! :0) (weavalicious and awful awfuls all up in there mmmkay) There are no faces to blame when I am made to work harder, there is no one to kick when I do not live up to what is desired, there is no one to be upset at...but myself. There is some ultimate reason why I think like this...if you can tell me why, please send it in a fortune cookie lol *Everything in it's right place...* Radiohead What does not kill you makes you stronger right?
Wrong, it really fucks with your head and then you get drunk (or you want to get drunk but drink extra strong chai instead), go for a run by the beach, eat too much chocolate and lock yourself in a room bitting hard on your lip and having anxiety attacks while your right side freezes up..... But then you get a little stronger and go on ... so yeah I'm not dead! wohooho! Van Gogh may have blew his brains out...but I'm nowhere near the end.
This is the beginning...or maybe, just another pit stop before I get to the toll road on the freeway of someplace obscure enough to be on earth --- yes i wrote this while not intoxicated with anything but a little peace tonight. *thank you Billie, Ray and MJ for bringing me back from under the water -- time to float back in the sky* Work: MJJF MJJS (and no MJ is not all i work on...i do have a life lol) Cre8tePro website - will be my launch into freelancing myself out :) Peace, Y 
