  All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you... -- Gandalf to Frodo in The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring I went furniture shopping today with my friend Eitan. He had already eaten so he went with me to Wai? Cafe and had ginger tea while I had my delicious Wai? Salad. Afterwards, we walked down 14th street and popped in a futon furniture store, then Seaman's furniture, then another store on Third Avenue, and then I had to go to work.
We didn't buy anything, but it was so much fun to browse and look around in the stores. I saw some things I may go back and consider buying. I'm going to a party tonight at my friend Keenan's house. He lives in Williamsburg. I really like it there because everyone is youthful, trendy, and sexy--nothing like my neighborhood.
But it should be fun. I invited a lot of people to join me too. I'll write about it later. Although I am feeling glamourous today, I'm tired of being single. I want a boyfriend. Today is National Coming Out Day . Who knew there was a day devoted to it? I found out about it this past Tuesday. I wish the whole issue was not as complex as our society makes it. Whatever. There are people that I am sure suspect that I am interested in the men of the world, and there are some who I have not talked to about it yet.
People are people no matter how they are wired biologically. I used to be so concerned about what people thought about me, not just regarding my sexuality but general things about me. It does not matter as much to me now, because I am more secure with my Self . I am what I am, just as you are what you are.
The other day I was at my bank getting money from the ATM. These two teenaged boys were sitting by the window. After I got my money and turned to walk out I overheard one of them say to the other, "he's gay". A few years ago, something like that would have me flee in shame and embarassment, but this time I retorted, "YEP!
" in agreement with his observation as I walked on my way with a smile. I mean, really, the foolish child merely stated something I have known myself for over twenty years. Anyway, things are much better now. Living in New York City will do that to you. It will make you stronger, more ambitious and more powerful if you know how to take care of yourself. There are those who, for whatever reason, cannot endure the burdens of this metropolis. Sometimes, people really are victims of circumstance, but I am a firm believer in willpower.
No matter what life hands to you--or throws at you, it is up to the individual to do what must be done in order to achieve one's goals and move to the next level. People constantly rely on things that they do not need to get by. Cigarettes, coffee, pills, blah, blah, blah... Personally, I view these vices as weakness--and weakness is disgusting! Vulnerability is appealing--and altogether different, but weakness is unacceptable. I know people who just have to have their cancer-sticks--knowing full well it is not good for them or the others they smoke around, but their weakness allows them to submit to their addiction. Simply put, smokers are people that have made a stupid decision in life. I used to think that smokers were just plain stupid but that is too brash and brazen of a judgement to make, and has implications I would rather avoid.
The same with coffee. It is so silly to rely on some beverage in order to "wake up" and start the day. If you take good care of yourself, you will wake up and not need anything to get going. Just be good to yourself. Listen to your body and it will take care of you. (Sigh) I make it sound so simple don't I? Well, it isn't that difficult if you are dedicated to bettering yourself.
Anyway, I have said enough for now. I am going to go drink some spring water... Ciao for now! 
