  Today was my first day of work at the new location. nbsp;  I like the new space,  but I don't like doing the same job. nbsp;
 I have been in a rut for&
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years now and I am tired of being patient.
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 I need to make something happen.
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 I need to hatch a plan.
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 I know what my problem is.
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 I know why things are not working the way I want them to.
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 I am not focused.
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 I have either lost it or didn't have enough to begin with.
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 That has to change.
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 The same situations and the same routine keep cropping up over and over.
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 I need to break the cycle,  stop the pattern,  delete the file,
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pull out&
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the weeds,  sweep the floor,  clear the air,  turn over a new leaf- a new tree for that matter!
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 Whatever phrase you can think of that applies to getting on with things and starting new.
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 I need to do it.
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 But getting started has continued to be a problem for me.
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 Where to begin is another one.
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 I have to think and I have to stay focused.
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 Sometimes things just get so discouraging,  and it is too easy to just call it quits and stop trying.
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 Obviously,  that won't get me anywhere.
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 I dwell in the most famous,  most influential city on the planet and I cannot figure out how to get in on the action.
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 It is frustrating and daunting all at the same time.
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 I just need to start making waves,  make something happen and stay focused on it&
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to see it through.
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 I know I am intelligent,  capable,  competent,  ambitious,  resourceful,
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reliable and full of potential.
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 I need to get others,  more importantly others&
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in positions of power,  to recognize this.
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 I'll figure something out.
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 I have to.
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 I simply have to.
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 This is serious.
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 I need a change.
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 I need a chance.
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Sure,  I've felt this way before.
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 But this time it is different.
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 I&
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am going to do a lot of thinking,  ( maybe even plotting)  to&
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get some results.
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 For now,  I may be down.
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 But one thing no one should ever do is count me out.
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 I'll find a way to get what I want.
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 I'll be back in action soon enough.
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 As Heather Locklear 's character on Melrose Place ,  supervixen Amanda Woodward once said,  " I intend to be the last one standing at the end of the game.
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