  I started a blog to record my efforts to buld my own house. This blog will remian my frustrated place to blow off steam, and that will become a record of acheivement on that one subject. I am so tired all the time. I need forward motion. I will get it soon, I'm going to be thrown out of the apartment I have lived in for 8 years so they can build a football field for the high school next door. It sucks that the effort is being lead by the father of one of the people I care most about on the planet. I really didn't need the stress. Maybe I can play it for all it's worth and get some conections out of it and use them to get my goal of a house. 
