  Well, it's been a while. I have been busy doing "stuff". I have actually decided to satrt working out again. I went to the Princeton club today and it felt great! I have set up to go with Laura to areobics next week. I have never thought of myself as an aerobics gal, but if I'm there with someone I know, it might be okay. It seems a little wierd, Laura is a bit older than I am, and her daughters babysit for Ashley, but really, almost all my friends are that age. I guess it just feels different with her because her girls are so much older. Who knows? I also organized an outing for the troop to go to the club and meet with a personal trainer and tour the facility.
I think that it will be fun. Our collection for the family that lost their home in the fire is going well. I am so proud of those girls, they are all such good kids, even the new ones that I was worried about are doing a great job. I went out with Mary last weekend, I am afraid that it will be the last time that I see her ever. We said that we would try to hook up at least one more time, but I think that with the holidays coming, it will be hard.
Christopher was with us, and we ran into Franki! Nikol and I met him the last time that we went out with Mary and we had such a great time making fun of him and calling him "Nick". This time was just as good. note to self, never get Franki talking about real estate. I got an e-mail from Angela on Monday. I have not heard from her in forever. She is really nice, I feel bad that we didn't "click" after the first couple of days. I think that the whole thing, the whole summer and into fall, was a great time of growth for me. I have learned so much and met some great people. I am sure that I have made the right choices, I would have regretted not taking action, but I've also learned that some things are better when left as a fantasy.
sigh I do miss Nikol, I have not been able to catch her at all lately. I did get an e-mail reply, but I can never find her on line. I wonder if it has to do with her switching her ID. I'll have to e-mail again soon. Christopher is bugging me about this blog thing.
He wants to read it. I guess he can, It's not a big deal, nothing is secret. I would just hate to have that in the back of my mind all the time, like I'm writing for an audience. I know it's just my husband, but still. Maybe somethings should still be private. He wouldn't want me to read his journals. I know, because I tried that a few years ago! So we saw the third installment of the Matrix. I loved it! I can not say enough positive things about it! I think that it was as good as the original, but in its own ways. It can't really be measured against the original, but as a closing of the story, it was everything that I had hoped for.
Class is going well, however, there were some disturbing passages. Lots about enochs and even some about being eaten by dogs! Just a lot of death and above all else, alot of contradiction. I feel like I was just finding a faith (very ignorant of me) and now that I am really studying it, I am very much questioning what I thought that I had come to believe. I find it interesting, but I have a really hard time being a real believer. I honestly think of the Bible as a collection of stories. Some of them are great; timeless stories of betrayal, love and human nature. There are some wonderful lessons learned, and alot of those lessons carry over into today, but honestly, I find most of it just arbitrary and completely unrealistic. I believe in the behaviors that are characteristicaly Christian, but I don't know what else at this point.
Sometimes I feel like a hypocrit, and feel guilt for having been confirmed and becoming a member without having a real knowledge of the faith. It's a constant struggle. Add that to the Non-Christian faith that I was brought up in, and there is just a mess of stuff going on in my little head. I could go on about this religious topic all day, but I won't. Joe Schmo is on and my new book is calling my name. Is that sacreligous, to leave a bible monolouge to watch trashy reality TV and read a book about the post-apocolyptic world? 
