  Life is puzzling.  Early Sunday afternoon. which means I have just got up. and the first thing that happens today is that I talk my folks back home. Some of these thoughts have been hovering around in my head for a while. on and off.
but today I just thought I pen them down.  Why do we leave people that matter a lot to us?  Why do we go to a different town/ country to do something ?  Some people say career,  money,
 achievement. and stuff like that. But why do we have a career?  Isn't the basic idea of having a career,  a job and money,  to make a comfortable living with your loved ones?
 Aren't we losing the true meaning of life itself? We live apart from family,  friends slogging our butts off. making money. even though we know we probably would lead a comfortable life,  have a good career wherever we were (
granted,  maybe we could not make money that would make us filthy rich. but hey,  we learn to live comfortably with what we have most of the time) What good is your achievements the people who would appreciate it are not with u?  Life always has a way to fool around with you.
It makes you get used to people, the place and u start to get the eeling " I am in a comfy zone now"  and. Then. It throws a surprise at you.
Making you leave to another place where no one really cares a damn if u r dead or alive. I could call it " destiny" But I could also call it " the choices I made"  (
I can see hemya grinning ear to ear) But the question that is unanswered is why do we do things that ultimately get us money. but does not give us happiness. I know a lot of us take these decisions. But I shall stick to my own story.  YES I have more money today than three years ago.
Yes I can buy a BMW. the car I only dreamt of having,  in India. I can buy a sports bike or a cruiser. I have seen a few countries now. I have been water rafting,
 jet skiing,  skiing,  tubing. and to tons of stuff that I couldn't do in Mysore. But can I see my parents if I want to? NO.
I have to plan a year ahead just to do that. Can I just go once near St. Joseph's ( my school)  or K. D.
 Road and eat the food that I want? No. Can I come back home to see mama or dad waiting for me? NO. when I turn my bike onto my street. Can I see my cats waiting for me at the gate?
NO. I could drone abt this for a while. but the point is. It puzzles me because all of us know what we truly want. Our deepest desires are not to own a bimmer but to be happy with our loved ones. yet we move away from them.
 As Tyler Durden says in fight club,  " we need to let go of things that truly don't matter" now if we go by this sentence. Does it mean to say for us family and friends do not matter? or does it just go to say we are not letting go of money?
or maybe its more like when he says " The things you own end up owning you" I don't know the answer. But am really trying hard to figure out why do we make decisions so that we always end up losing stuff that matters most in our life.
