  Time to move on!  Its me at my philosophical and cribbing best today. Thought I warn some of u before u read on. its been eight and a half months since I have started a new life here in CT. Everything seems to have changed. I do have all the people I had before even now.
yet things are different. Its not like things have changed overnight. I have had some relationships change gradually over the past year. some have changed at a more rapid rate. people with whom I would talk like 3- 4 times a day.
be it live or over the phone. haven't really been in touch lately. we talk once a week or so. and even then the conversations are short. everyone has moved on. I unfortunately haven't.
I seem to be hanging on to certain things which should just be in my memories.  I have had some of my friends tell me I have changed in 8 months. I am more introspective and more serious these days. and seems that I have been losing my jovial nature of late. is it my fault if everything around me changes and I make a few changes accordingly? Living with none of ur family/
friends around u is not something that I favor. Its gives u too much free time ( Even though I keep myself busy most of the time)  and it makes u think a lot about things which u probably wouldn't have given a thought. relationships somehow have a new meaning. and u begin to understand your importance in each realtionship.
Over a period of time I have realised that the more u hang onto something. the only person getting worked up is u. everyone else is leading a perfectly happy life.  So maybe it is time I come to accept the fact that this is how my life is gonna be. its time to break away with things that have kept me tied up emotionally and move on. move to a state of mind where I feel free.
as I used to few years ago.
