  um i didn't go to the movies with katelyn, her boyfriend, and this other guy named donner. partly because of a family plans, and me bein in a weird position. and this donner guy was 19 =/ eh no thanx. so i just chilled with kendall instead. as we were leaving to walk to kendalls i told my mom i wuz goin over for dinner and stuff, but she didn't hear me. after i finished eatin dinner my mom calls sayin she wuz worried sick and didn't know where i wuz. i wuz like oh sry i told you.. and she like meh no you didn't tell me! so i asked when she wanted me home and she said after dinner which i had just finished, so i walked back home.
i came back and she was really upset because she was plannin for the family to go out to eat and the to see 'the village'. but i didn't know she was planning all of this. she was all mad at me for thinkin told her i was goin, and ruining her big plans.... which both weren't my fault. so i got mad and she said i had an attitude. eh it was annoying, i was really frustrated. i came back downstairs and we decided that since both karly and marika were out and i didn't really wanna go out that we'd just watch a movie at home.
we watched a comedy and i wasn't so mad and neither was my mom and we enjoyed the rest of the night. i luv my mom, but she barely listens to me/hears me anymore. its like a one sided conversation half the time. and when i repeat my question er answer, she'll still ignore it. and when i raise my voice she'll say i have an attitude. or say i'm so cruel to her or something. its gotten worse this past year. i think that's what brings on all the arguments in my family most the time, or me and karly 'mis behavin'.
i guess the reason i get caught for doin things is that i'm just not a good liar. then i got back online and talked to elliot for a lil while and he told me i had a nice smile which no one has ever told me so that made my day. =) then i went to bed. so all that wasn' really that bad, but the rest of my night i was really really depressed.
probably the saddest i've been in and i can't remember. and my dream didn't help either. i still feel like shit and i'm not really in the mood to hangout with anyone, cuz they'll probably just tell me how to deal with the problem and i know i wont do it. they make it sound so easy... im done writin, bye. 
