  Why is it so hard to write you? nbsp;  I have sat here for two weeks trying to figure out how to start you. nbsp;  I can write novelettes,  poetry,
 and short stories in other languages,  yet I can not write you. nbsp;  You make me sick sometimes,  but I love you anyways. nbsp;
 It's fun to get you because I know it means something. nbsp;  Sometimes I'll get an e- mail and I'll delete it without reading it. nbsp;  I rarely if ever throw you away without at least looking at you.
nbsp;  If somebody decided to put in the effort to use you to speak to me- and believe me,  it is an effort- I think that's totally cool. nbsp;
 But why is it so hard for me? nbsp;  I'm so used to being impersonal,  I suppose. nbsp;  If I opened my eyes a bit and spent a pocket of change on a "
God Bless America"  stamp that I don't even really like,  I think I could do it. nbsp;  It's hard to make an effort sometimes. nbsp;
 It's hard to show someone you care. nbsp;  You really do make me sick. but it's a good kind& nbsp; of sick.
nbsp;  Thanks.
