  Is it me, or not? Why does this always happen? Why do I only bring hurt, and pain? Is the fact that people like me just for the facade I put up why? I doubt that people really care for me, at least the me that the REAL me. I think they just like the outside character I put up when I'm trying to make friends, or imptess someone.
Sure, I'm happy sometimes, but whenever I act spur of the moment or anything, IT always makes things worse. I think everything might be better if I didnt ever speak, if I just kept my mouth shut and stayed in the background. Then I'd be sad all the time, but at least everybody else would be fine. I think that sounds like a good idea.
But I'll never be able to do that. My personality wouldn't allow it. Am I just a failure at life? Or just at any sort of a relationship with another person? Sometimes I wish I could be invisible, so people wouldn't always be asking "What's wrong?". It's annoying, and the only people that need to know already do. Will they do something about it? No. At least not for a while. People suck. Sometimes they're alright, but then their colors show and they're complete assholes.
Sometimes I think that it would be a good idea just to seperate myself entirely from everybody. Some people are just annoying all the time. Some are just idiots. I hate it when people seem appealing, nice, and whatnot, but then once you show that you are indeed an idiot, they suddenly become what you like the least. What a happy year. Especially my birthday. Hoo-rah for that. 
