  With all my whinging, I managed to not mention anything that happened this weekend. Friday night I met urlLink the boy at urlLink Moonstruck , then watched a little urlLink Wallace & Gromit before heading to dinner with urlLink Hannah , urlLink Sarah , and the elusive CandyPants. Risotto, Scrabble, and much silliness ensued, though I felt a little out of it and consequently was a bit withdrawn. I passed urlLink Shawn in the doorway and he pulled me back for a kiss, good and proper, the way a girl should be kissed by the boy who loves her. We went home and watched urlLink Gods and Monsters , which was pretty incredible, then crashed earlyish.
Saturday we slept until late, read for a while, and bummed around until late afternoon, when we went back to urlLink Sarah and urlLink Hannah 's to see Matt, in town for an afternoon, along with Ben. It was good to see Matt - I wish I'd had more of a chance to talk to him, but maybe next time. Sometimes his crushing hugs are just the solution to whatever ails you - and other times it's hard because he sees through the walls I put up to protect myself. At New Year's he kept asking me if I was OK, asking what was really going on behind my eyes - and I managed to dodge the question. This time I wanted him to ask, and he didn't. Hopefully I'll get to talk to him more soon. After Matt and Ben left, the four of us went to urlLink Fiesta Cafe , where I had the terrific Bandido.
Lots of tasty tasty food. After dinner we browsed for a while at urlLink Pages for All Ages , where urlLink Sarah and I finally had a chance to talk - we camped out on the bathroom floor and talked and cried (well, I did). It was really good, and just what I needed. The boy loaned me his gloves, and we went to see urlLink Miracle , which was worlds better than I expected. Loads of audience participation, including one man who jumped up to cheer for the goals as they were scored on-screen. urlLink Shawn held my hand. After the movie we said our goodbyes, stopped to buy coffee, and crashed. Slept in today - I was really tired this weekend for some reason - and headed home around noon as urlLink Shawn had lunch plans to stock up on meat with Oday and Dan. I delved into a pit of self-loathing and shruggishness, as displayed in my earlier post, and talked to urlLink Adrienne online for a while, which was nice. I had a long bath and a nap, talked to my mom, and felt better. urlLink Sarah and I talked online for a while, which was good. We haven't had much time to talk just the two of us lately - we used to have lunches, and meat night dinners, and both of those things have included other people recently.
I think we both needed it. Lots of things going on. I went to urlLink Shawn 's to watch urlLink Law & Order and ended up staying through urlLink The X-Files . It was nice to just sit and be together. I know we do that a lot, but sometimes it's just what I need.
I came home around midnight and tried to relax, but was too awake from all the napping and sleep all weekend - so I took a bath with some gorgeous urlLink LUSH products courtesy of urlLink Heidi , and am now hoping to sleep. Oh, and did I mention that urlLink Shawn did all my dishes? I came home from work Thursday night to find that he'd done them all. How great is that?! I'm feeling better. Somehow getting it all out helps. Still more to talk about, but at least my concerns, my fears, my hopes are out there. Have a good night, kids. 
