  okay. i'm starting this thing all over again. when you haven't written anything for two months, there's no way to catch up. i figured i may as well just start from today and go from there. i put up a picture of me and my dog dylan. it's not a new picture and it's not the most attractive picture of either one of us, but it's the only one i have of us right now. it's from last year on day two, "the jorney home", of our big backpacking adventure. my friend marci, the dog and i all went on a five mile hike into the middle of the ozark national forest. we were on the ozark highland trail and it was so beautiful! five miles was a lot at that time because neither one of us had been on an overnight backpacking trip before. since then i have not been on any more overnight journeys, but i have been on many day trips from four to six miles. i haven't had much time for hiking lately. i have been busy in the pits of depression. thankfully i am over that now and am a better person for the time i spent in that ugly place.
it wasn't fun, but it was necessary for me to move on with my life. i'm sure you can all relate. now i have dedicated my weekends to working. yes, more working. i already have an mon thru fri, 8 to 5 job and two cleaning jobs (each one day a week), but that still does not support my overspending habits. i have now destroyed my credit cards and have taken on another job to pay the price for bad money management. i am going to be a hostess at a local fancy restraunt on thurs, fri and sat nights. so much for fun on the weekends.
but it will be worth it to be debt free. also, my most recent passion is moving. where you say? to montana? what's in montana? that is the most common response my friends give me when i tell them my plans. i don't know what's there, but i would like to find out. i have always wanted to live there and i am thinking of finishing college. i may pursue a degree in forestry or wildlife biology or something of that nature. who knows. i won't be able to move until i pay off some bills and have enough cash to move on. most of you (family & friends) already know all of this stuff, but i had to start somewhere.
well, i guess this is all i have to say for today. i will leave you all with a poem, it's one of my favorites. i'll check in tomorrow and let you know how my new job went. peace out, jonelle. reflections in a mocha: i ate the whipped cream first chocolate covered people drinking water flavored coffee over vanilla conversations of war & loyalty my eyes lined dark with hopelessness so you don't forget to look there first stained-glass lies on bright flashing screens punk down the ways i feel so lost and empty lips numb from nicotine the consequences of trying not to think i show more skin so no one tries to see inside jpd 2-16-04 
