  that last post seems so appropriate for how i'm feeling right now. now that i have had it all i'm having problems settling for less. i want all of those feelings back. the warmth that would spread through me everytime i looked into his eyes. the feel of his hands on my skin... all that and more. will i ever have those feelings for anyone again?
if so then when? i feel so empty right now. so abandoned. i keep hoping for a phone call, an email... i understand that he wasn't right for me, so how did i fall so hard? what happened to my kool detachment that i usually have for people? and what now? will someone please tell me how to make these feelings go away? how to numb myself? please... 
