  I have decided that I don't care about derivatives or Huck Finn or the reform groups of the 19th century. I really don't care that there are 2 forms of the future tense in Spanish, it doesn't matter. At some point I pretended that this nonsense was important and a good thing to spend my time on, but that has changed.
I don't know when it changed or how, but school is no longer about learning to me. I used to relish in the academics of it all, but that disappeared. When I say I enjoy a class I am no longer talking about the subject matter but the people and the dynamic that exists. People have become so much more important to me as of late. I mean, friends were important before but they were never my lifeline.
As the importance goes up, lines become fuzzy. No one is simply a cut and dry friend it seems. There are barriers that I see that I never saw before and that seems so odd. Labels and determining where I stand has taken utmost importance, which makes me feel shaky about the whole thing. Why can't things go back to the simple way they were before? Do I want them to? 
