  WHY AM I STILL AWAKE? When you are a creative person, you sometimes find that your mind is like a toilet that runs. No matter how much you jiggle the chain, and believe me, I can jiggle a chain like nobody's business, the water just keeps on running in the toilet. I recently bought a copy of All Saints greatest hits album called All Hits . In case you don't remember, they were the edgey Spice Girls who were popular back in 1998. As far as I can remember, they released two singles in the U.S.: I Know Where It's At , which didn't do much for me; and Never Ever , which I never heard until recently. I like Never Ever. It's sort of bluesy. I could see some one singing this in a bar. My favorite song on the album is Pure Shores , which was from the movie The Beach. It was written by William Orbit who produced Madonna's Ray Of Light album. However, the song that I am currently obsessed with is Black Coffee .
It's very edgey in the beginning with the guitar. It reminds me of somone coming off prozac and then the chorus is so melodic, like someone going on prozac. Anyway, this has been in the Miata's CD player for awhile. I found an orange, plastic bag in the pantry and it contained five of these chocolate covered wafer snacks that I brought back from Thailand in September of 1999. I turned 32 in Bangkok that year and I sang One Night In Bangkok as we walked around. We went to 2F's first gay bar there. I was interested to see how different it would be on the other side of the world and what pieces of their culture would the Thai gays incorporate into their alternative night life. Well, we walked in and they were playing Ricky Martin's Livin' La Vida Loca and they were showing some video footage of a drag queen on a float.
Two little boys who came up to our belt buckles hit on us. It wasn't quite the first experience I wanted 2F's to have. I was always telling him what good music they played in a gay bar and how much fun it is to go dancing. I remember dancing to That's What Love Can Do by Boy Krazy from 1993, which was actually released in 1991 in the UK.
Anyway, 2F's and I ate some of those chocolate things. They were a little stale, but quite tasty. I've been enjoying the urlLink Beast Momma blog lately. I haven't kept up with everyone's blog on a daily basis since I've had so much work to do, but I try to catch up very few days. I really enjoy Jaspreet's posts. She has a very singular voice in her writing style and there is something fresh and almost innocent in her perspective. Her posts are very introspective and not only reveal much about her character, but motivate me to turn within and examine myself. I noticed last week that I was beginning to receive hits from a blog entitled urlLink Complex Superior .
I checked it out for a few days to see what I thought about it and I find it interesting. The author is a writer himself and has written an interesting post about his parents' 30th wedding aniversary. I paid bills tonight and attacked one of the last remaining stacks on my desk. I'm learning to be ruthless with paper and not hold onto anything that may come in handy one day. If I don't use it immediately, it's gone. I'm sure that land fills everywhere are quaking in fear. I rushed to get to my writers group tonight and no one was there. I walked around the book store looking very conspicuous with two inches of copies of my work to share. It gradually dawned on me that March has an extra week in it and my meeting is next Tuesday. I felt sort of deflated because I had worked more on Exfoliation and was interested to get their feedback. By the way, I'm approaching 20 pages with this story and I'm only about 2/3 through it. I'm coming up on the most difficult part. I'm really eager to finish it and move on to the treatment for my screenplay for the 2004 Perfect Pitch cCntest . In addition to Exfoliation , I brought copies of Ten Years After The Honeymoon to share. As I reread the story, I wash shocked to discover how many typos were in in it.
I have reposted this post with my revisions. I apologize for the typos. I find that when I'm involved in my writing, I will leave out words, repeat entire sentences or even misspell words that I know how to spell. My new flat panel monitor also makes the text very small and I can't always see exactly what I have typed without getting close the screen. I can't seem to adjust the display adequately. I looked at potential hosting for cultofjef.com, but haven't decided upon anything definite.
I'm having issues with Dotser. Evidently they do not wish to have anyone contact them because their phone numbers and e-mail addressed do not work. I'm looking forward to moving my blog to its own domain so I can put some of my Web design skills to work. I went to school for two years to get the degree, I might as well use it. I'm not sure if I'll do anything with boygeniusdesigns.com.
The pollen has been thick in the air and I feel as if my throat is stuffed with cotton. I was reviewing some marketing material that Robert gave me. The first manual I read was just a repeat of information from a seminar we went to a month ago. I mentioned this to him and he became very defensive as if I was being critical when I was simply stating a fact. I didn't even try to tell him that I wasn't being critical because it doesn't matter. It just makes him more defensive. I've learned to just get off the phone with him quickly, so I did. 
