  So its been ages since I added to the blog, i hoped it would be a sort of daily thing but it has turned out to be anything but that. I realise that i really need to move on with my life. Looking back in the past all the time really doesn't do me any good at all. There are various things that I need to sort out in my life 1. My weight - I allow it to run my life and stop me doing stuff or maybe its the reason why i don't lose weight, then I don't have to do anything and life can run along in its own sweet way.
there is some comfort in being stuck in the same old rut day afetr day, week after week and month after month. It allows me to continue the myth that being fat means that I am also stupid, which I know I am not but Its a label and it has sorta stuck with me and I have seriously got the point where i nearly believe it.
2. My work - I had to change jobs in January as I was made redundant as the company closed and I should be grateful because I was offered a job, but it was less pay but I have 2 kids to keep so I have to be sensible about it. They come first and it isn't just me that lives in this house. this new job has made me realise though that there are some nice places to work. I only do it part-time but I really would like to work there full-time. I do however have another part-time job which is driving me nuts but due to the fact thatI need the money and that I hate confrontation, I have done nothing about asking, after all the worst they could say is no! 
