  Going through the motions I pulled my tools out of the classroom today after I blued my .45 this morning. The class is now almost empty, except for Matt and Jamin's stuff, and I don't know why theirs is still present - Gardner called everything off this past Tuesday, and Dean had to pull a few strings to get me in to blue this morning. I'm going to let it cure for a day or two before I reassemble it and post finished pictures. Diamond and I are still working things out.
Still a whole lot of stuff going on in both our heads, and there are things which are obviously bothering her, but she won't talk to me about it. I don't know what to do, she doesn't know what to do, and so every day is a new struggle to keep my head above water.
I try, but she's in a situation where she's essentially been trained to distrust me. Only God and I know my motives and intentions, and I feel like the boy who cried wolf. Now that I really am doing my job as a husband, she's unwilling to believe me. I can't blame her, but at the same time I'm frustrated out of my mind. She's my life, she's my everything, and I still feel like I'm losing her. Anyways, it's almost tomorrow - time to start this all over again. 
