  I want someone to hold me in their arms, and tell me I'm beautiful...Just to make me feel good, because I know I'm not! I want to feel special, I want someone to give me hugs for no reason....Someone to hold my hand and make my heart go crazy, someone who won't get tired of me (because I seem to be doing that a lot lately)! I just want someone who wants to talk to me and who wants to always be with me....I just want to be with that someone!
so what's new? Yeh, alot here too! the friend i wrote about last..is doin ok, i guess! He says he's doin ok, but, i don't believe him..for some reason! I guess i can just see the way he is...compared to way he used to be,and it's different..but, not drastically! I really hope he realizes that he's such a great guy, and that he deserves somebody who sees how great he is! I'm having soo many mixed emotions right now, it's stupid! I like this one guy..but, there's this other guy, whom when i'm around, drives me crazy!
I love being around him, and always want to be around him, but, it gets a little twisted! I can't explain it, because i don't want people to know, but, i feel like such crap! It seems that whenever something good happens, something bad happens, but, is kind of good, if that made any sense! I'm between a rock and a hard place, because i don't know what to do! I don't want to hurt anybody, but, i have to do what feels right...but, right now, i don't know what that is! but, it'll all come together, so, i'm goin to try not to worry about it! -Lauren 
