  Why am I always so stupid? I am insecure, and awful, and sabotaging my own life! I went to convocation on Tuesday, and saw my prince. Actually, he is just a remarkably lovely man that I see around my academic building occassionally. I used to also see him in my apt building, last year when I was still living in the dump called Fenwick. Anyway, turns out he was graduating as well, but from undergrad.
With a university award, no less. I noted his name, and googled him today... first off, he is brilliant. Nominated for a Rhodes Scholarship, among others. Offered a 6-figure scholarship to go to University of Chicago (unheard of!). Leaving in the fall for England. Depression setting in...
I noticed him a year ago! Or more! Why didn't I ask him out!? I am complete shit. And he is just so lovely. If anyone knows a brilliant man named Andrew, please tell him I am sorry I never asked him out. 
