  First of all, let me tell any of you who are considering ever moving to San Diego...don't live in Mira Mesa.
Every part of my body is sweating. I think there's internal parts of my body that are sweating. Everything is sweating. Apparently, when they developed this area in the 60's and 70's, it didn't get as warm as it does out here right now, so they figured building air conditioning systems wouldn't be necessary.
Now I guess with global warming and God only knows what else, it's 95 degrees out here every fucking day for the past few weeks. Dying. At least I was smart and picked the downstairs bedroom, as opposed to the upstairs one. Oh, urlLink here is something I found to be entertaining. Last night I saw Dave and his little posse he brought along. Giant jokes ( I am the giant, har har har ) were cracked the entire night, and Dave gave me the Attack of the 50 Ft Woman poster I have wanted for a very long time. And I am borrowing Season 3 of Sifl & Olly to burn. YAY! We had Thai food and at the place we went it was free desert night.
We also watched the new network comedy "Quintuplets," which was quite possibly the worst television show I have ever actually sat through in my entire life. I guess it was funny to sit there and bash it. There were also about 5 billboards around town that only say "Nighttime ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! " with a picture of like an elephant or ape howling at the moon. Dave kept asking if we could go to the zoo, and I told him it was too late. Then he would point to one of the billboards and say "YOU'RE LYING, LOOK! IT SAYS 'NIGHTTIME ZOOOOOOoooOOOOOoooOOO! '" Haha. I decorated my room some more, but I think I might be going overboard. April, you do realize that this is quite possibly one of the greatest pictures of you of all time, right?
And Sara... urlLink Grace is easily one of the most adorable infants I have ever seen in my life, and I have seen more babies than most people my age... so that's saying a lot. I have come to several realizations over this past week about a lot of things, as a byproduct of writing and writing and writing AND WRITING for hours upon hours.
Not all of it has crystallized enough to really talk about in detail, but I am pretty sure I want to go to school for Biology. Goal: Medical Research. The response I've had has been mixed when I have brought it up to a few people, but I don't really give a shit.
My mother was really supportive when I told her about the ideas I had, which is good. I'm sure John is too, I don't see why he wouldn't be as it took him 15 YEARS and 5 different Universities before he finally found out what he wanted to do and became a doctor of Internal Medicine. (He also has a degree in Psychology, which is hilarious since he is probably one of the most mentally abusive and depressed human beings I have ever met in my life). I just think it is a goal that is definitely challenging enough for what I would want, the job itself would be productive, innovative, and stimulating to me...from what I know about it.
I would (of course) like to talk to some people in the field to find out more, as well. But I think starting out with Biology as my major would be SOMETHING, I'd also try to focus a lot on Chem/Physics since my background in those areas is pretty bare. I think the hardest thing for me along the way about finding out what I want to do is the fact that I know I could do anything that I wanted to do. That may sound pretty conceited and presumptuous, but I know I could. No one ever had to tell me that for me to realize that.
I have known that since I was a very young girl. Tech work has been great for the past few years. I have learned a lot and gained a lot of skills that I wouldn't have gained by continuing with retail management, or not working at all, etc. However, at this point I think there are too many things about it that are way too tedious and old already, and I can't think of any particular area to study or that really produces any interest for me. I think that continuing with the company I am with now through the time I am here or until I find something better is a good thing to do. I will continue to build experience that I can use to continue to work in the tech field until I can actually start working in areas that have to do with my final career goals.
So, yeah. That is what I have decided for now. I guess it may sound odd to anyone who knows me really well because it isn't exactly anything I have talked about pursuing in any detail, but when I weighed out what I was looking for and what all of the different areas I was considering had to offer, this outweighed everything by a landslide.
This is the most I've had in front of me that made any sense. I'm going to grab on to it, and not let go. For now. 
