  i just found out that a friend of mine has been diagnosed with cancer. now if people think i'm a strong person, she definitely comes in first place in this department! she shows no sign of fear what-so-ever. now that's what you call determined! that's what you call total faith in the lord! what made me cry is when she said, "good or bad, i've lived a great life. " i don't know...that statement hit me like a ton of bricks. she's determined to win, yet ready for the worst. i totally understand what she's saying though. i think if i were to find out i had a life-threatening illness, i would be prepared for the worst as well.
actually, even though i don't have anything life-threatening, i'm prepared for death. not to be morbid, but i'm not afraid to die. maybe it's because i've been through too much of the bad here on earth, i'd be ready for the eternal paradise. the place where you feel no pain, sadness, grief. and i have waay too many people up in heaven to keep me company. one person in particular that i could be with for always. that i could hold and cuddle all day long.
but yeah, i don't think death is a scary concept. it's more sad than scary. but you definitely go on to a better place. and you don't die, you just go somewhere that you weren't able to see or go to. anyways, i pray that she gets well. and i know she will! on another note, I'M OFF for the next two days!!!! i will definitely bum it around the house :). 
