  i kinda figured out something. well i actually realized it a while ago but now i just feel like sharing it. it might sound vain and all but... everyone wants to have sex with me. i know i wouldnt be the first person to pick myself for something like that but hey, im not the one doing the picking.
but honestly i have a whole list of people i could call write now and we could "hang out" this weekend. im just tired of people that are just around cause they want to get me in bed. i want someone who can look at my personality and someone who loves me for who i really am. but all the sexaholics are bad for me. it puts me in a very bad position. it makes it too easy for me to access and it just tempts me.
ive done some stupid things before and i have a knack for screwing things up. but i just wish i had someone to love me. not all these fake people. it all just sucks. on a happier note i got my blog set up so there is an e-mail address i can send to and it automatically posts it in my blog. which is like, so cool. 
