  ok, well a LOT has happened. well maybe not a huge amount but bunch of stuff has happened and it was all very significant slash important. well last night i slept like absolute crap. i stayed up hoping to get a phone call or text from either cody or amy cause i was worried. but im actually getting ahead of myself. first of all im not going to say too much cause its not my place to really say anything about it, but cody and amy did have some stuff they needed to talk about and whatnot. well my day started off with me calling amy because i had an "appointment" with her yesterday to talk about stuff. so i went over to her house and we had carl's jr. and started watching "swim fan" which is a pretty cool movie and kinda freaky at some points. but eventually amy and i really start talking about stuff that is going on in life and all the stupid things that happen in life. although i really dont get around to talking about the "big" stuff i was really hoping to talk about.
well the night before (or day or something) cody had texted amy saying that they should talk. and because i also wanted to talk to cody amy said he could come over while i was still there if it was cool with him. well he did come over and after a lot of stalling i eventually told him about my feelings for him and that i felt that he had a right to know and that in order for us to have a continuing friendship at all this had to be out in the open. i lost a good friend once before because of some very stupid decisions i made and i dont want that to happen again.
but when i told cody he took it very well actually and said that it took a lot of courage to come out and say that, which meant a lot to me. i felt so much better after getting that off my chest. but the two of us talked for bit just about everyday stuff and i felt that it was easier for me to talk with him and to just hang out now that i had this out in the open.
well cody and amy finally got around to talking, alone by the way. but eventually cody ended up driving me home cause the two of them still had some talking to do. i let both of them know if they needed anything at all to call. i just hated seeing both of them like that. well i talked to amy earlier and she said that things worked out pretty well and i also talked to cody and he said things worked out okay but wish they were better.
which i can understand given his position. i want to talk to amy later about this too. and yeah i know that i am not part of any of this but i guess i do keep interjecting myself into their affairs. i guess its part of just being a friend and trying to be there, but also i guess its part just trying to be a part of things and not being left out.
im one of those people that tries to help everyone. last night after i went home i jsut felt so useless, unable to do anything. i just wish i could make it better for the both of them, but i also know that they have to work things out on their own. i guess i just have to trust them to make the right decisions. hopefully amy can stop by later today cause i really want to talk to her about stuff.
not just about last night but about a few other things that have been on my mind that i really dont want to put of much longer. its nothing too horrible but it is something that i do need to talk about. later today im probably going to go jogging and burn off some extra energy and to jsut get out of the house. plus its a good day to go jogging and all with the rain. i know it sounds kinda odd but it just is. 
