  Thank you Laura for your comment! And actually thank you everyone who actually reads this thing.
I don't know what to say. I want to write but I just have nothing I can write about. I want to write but I guess I'm just so unmotivated to do so. I understand why I am doing this but I just don't know what to do about it. Amy and I are going to the beach. Not today but sometime soon we are going on a day trip to the beach. We both need to just get away from everything.
Go somewhere where the world can just leave you alone for a bit. I need to get away from it all. I need to take a break and just clear my mind and relax for a bit. It just seems that if there is not one thing going wrong it's another thing and I just simply need a vacation, even if it is only for one day. I just wish I could change things that can't be changed. I wish I could snap my fingers and make it all better.
Why am I cursed like this? I know the problem. I know what is going on. I just can't do anything about it. I can't force someone else to understand. I can't force someone else to change. The only thing I can really do is just wait and I suck at that. 
