  in my eyes& nbsp;  & nbsp;  It's amazing what not seeing people for a few days will do. nbsp;  Specifically,  not seeing the guys from Harrisburg. nbsp;  Without them,  I really don't get to see my femme friends (
although Juice and Java the other night was tres fantastique)  which is pathetic.
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 Since when do we need guys to define our friendships?
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 And on that note,  since when do we need guys to define ANY part of our lives?
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 I guess I'm more or less just venting because suddenly I'm having guy problems.
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 No,  not problems,  just one problem,  and his name is Andy.
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 And the answer to this problem is so incredibly simple,
 that when I found it,  it slapped me upside the head and told me I was a dumbass.
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 " Never let someone be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.
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 Wise words from my sister's profile.
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 Not like Andy was top priority or anything [ that will forever be myself and my mommy]  but I was putting too much emphasis on him without getting anything back.
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 And besides that,
 I do believe he just successfully phased me out.
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 It doesn't really hurt all that much,  seeing as I actually figured it out,  unlike poor Sean,  who probably is still wondering why I never answer my cell phone.
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 Phased out and single.
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 It just seems like a waste of like three weeks of my life,  you know?
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 But anyway,  there are much better things to talk about.
 & nbsp;
 I missed just having my femmes with me.
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 Which is why I think my slumber party is going to be an all-
girls thing,  maybe I'll still have a birthday party with the guys,  but right now I think I want to focus more on the people I really truly love and care about,  and that's my girl friends.
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 We've gotten so crazily close this summer .  what's going to happen when we all go our separate ways?
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 I'm on the verge of tears just thinking about it,  because the possibility of us all drifting apart just scares me.
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 I realize that I'm supposed to make new friends at college,  but damnit,  I'm not at college 365 days a year,
 and I like the friends I have now.
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 Besides .  we all know how I feel about other girls,  ha!
 & nbsp;
 On my final note of the evening .  it's about damn time,  Kirby.
 & nbsp;
 I love you all,  some more than others,  but still for all,  Your Sweetest b .
