  Feeling peacful. Such a warm feeling. I'm loving it. Just allowing myself to bask in the tidal wave of love and beauty undulating around me. Last night I interacted with all the loves of my life and it's made me euphoric. Even with only four hours of sleep i'm feeling pretty rested and wonderful. I woke up this morning with such a dynamic feeling of hope and optomism. It's so massive that it's consuming all my being, I feel like I should start handing out flowers to people or something.
Life is such a wonderful lover once you let her in. She soothes and comforts you, makes you feel attractive and desirable, makes you feel like you are her one and only, and she will never let you fall. We are still in the honeymoon phase but I feel our relationship can only grow stronger. She's let me into her world, shown me a glimpse of the secrets of her passions and I hungrily await each and every opportunity to experience more of what she has to offer.
Saw the human incarnation of my desire last night. I was so overcome by emotion that it's sheer force literally left me speechless. I am so in awe of this man. I look at him and I see everything that I've ever wanted to know, everything that I've ever wanted to be. I can barely keep my insides from spilling out into a sloshing puddle at his feet. Last night, over and over again I found myself gazing at him with blatant adoration.
It's not even that I have had the chance to speak with him in depth. It's just this powerful emotion that whisks me off into oblivion the second he steps into the room. I have never felt such a powerful rush of love for a complete stranger. I can only sit and patiently wait for my chance to bathe in the warm glow of his attention and affection. (As I'm talking my words Slip to the floor And they crawl through your legs Slide under the back door Rendering me Freakish and dazed Well, here I am Don't know how to say this Only thing I know Is awkward silence.... -"Freakish" - Saves the Day) So what's next on the agenda? Not too sure. Not really looking forward to climbing off my soapbox and back into the day-to-day of this artifical reality that I find myself stuck in but I'll get through it. Jenni and Neil just got engaged on Saturday. I'm helping her get her apartment together and such so that will consume a ton of my energy over the next few weeks.
I need to get cracking on my grad school timeline and start studying for the GRE's but for some reason I seem to believe the hourglass is frozen on NOW and the time for me to actually apply to schools will never come. Oh, well. Need to go. Life is leaving without me. 
