  the special assignment turned out to be a grammar and spelling check for my dept's newly proposed sumthing..cheh! i was thinking a trip to HK ke..NY ke..hehhe.. so i get to stay inside office today to do the special assignment..but, strangely i feel so detached.
from everything. my colleagues, my office, my day, everything. its like i am alone at my cubicle and i havent talked to anyone in ages. zero communication and i am like invisible to everybody else. after quite some time, played dont know why (norah jones) and boy oh boy it sure does bring back memories of me and fh (wtf???
thot u dont with him??? :)) just like some other songs as: -> your body is a wonderland -> dont know why -> i think there is more but couldnt recall since the lurrrveee has gone down the hill... *smiles* speaking of fh, no harm in updating .. :) we havenot communicated in what so ever ways since last friday. he sms-ed me at noon telling that he was at home eating maggi for lunch (*this is a hint that he is AT HOME so that my mind would catch it and eureka! to go to his house for a lunch fuck - which i didnt layan since i was enjoying a nice nasi ayam kampung near Jamek). I replied few hours later asking him why he was at home. His reply was "saja..it is my home..." - how rude can a person be? to express his frustration over not getting a free fuck by giving such answer. Okay, some might say 'what is so rude abt that?
' ..knowing fh as well as i do, that WAS his rude way of telling me off for not giving in to what HE wants.. and SO, that was it-lah! until today..and hopefully forever.. i love ladee very much and i wanna be with her. always. he mentioned ada this one time abt a person can only be happy in ways that he want to be happy and if it means using someone else for it, so be it lah! hmm...am i making him happy - and only him happy - by letting him go into me like dat? yeah, it was delicious but the other side of the whole shit sucks! oh well.. 
