  i am worried. never have i felt so worried as this. and it is not even myself. its ladee. she been getting her headache more and more often nowadays and have started talking abt suicide - not wanting to go ahead with her work and study - she even cried over the phone to me today after telling me she didnt wanna go to class.
i thot penang trip, which was all abt making her happy to come back and finish her final semester would do the work. but apparently things are turning for the worst. my rapid change of mood continue today. have a feeling my colleague is finding me wierder by the day. i dunno. ladee: i cant think, i cant work, i hate my studies. can i just end it? jL : i gotta fix my brain ladee. how leh... ladee: ......... both of us are on our ways to ruination. full stop. 
