  Hey hey!!! what's going on??? Well... this is what's happing in my life right now... lol. Well first of all... my best friend Erik is thinking about going to Northwest and live with his friend Cory next year. :'(. I really hope he doesn't.
He means a lot to me... and I don't know how I will get through the year without him there... becouse everything will remind me of him... and I would be sad almost everyday. He says he will come up to visit us... but he won't... he would have to be at his dads and moms most of the time... if he's not with Cory. And like this year... he wanted me to join choir with him next year... and so I signed up for men's choir just for him. Because you know I can't sing worth crap... But I did it for him... Because that's what friends is all about. But now he is ganna go to Northwest...
So he won't be in my class... And I feel like he abandoned me. But I don't want to talk to him about it right now because he is depressed and stressed out with this whole Northwest thing, Holly, his friends, school, MHS Idol, and baseball. So I'm ganna wait till later I guess to tell him... so he won't go all psycho on me lol. But I hope he really doesn't go next year. I would do almost anything so that he will go next year. He just doesn't know how good of friends he has... and he's ganna lose them if he goes there.
I don't think I can be his friend if he is going over there... and I'm ganna ask him if he is... becouse I don't want to get hurt anymore than I already have. I also think that he might go back to his old ways if he goes back... like to the drinking/smoking/drugs thing. He says he swears he won't... but he will... I know him. And I told him that it reminds me of that commerctial about the girl just standing on the dock... and her friend is drowning in the lake... and all she does is stand there... not helping. It makes me feel like that... that its right for a friend to help his other friend.
Right now I'm listing to a song that kindof reminds me of how our group started... I mean we could have seen each other before and not even know it.... here is alil part of the song... Somebody in the next car Somebody on the morning train Somebody in the coffee shop That you walk right on by everyday Somebody that you look at But never really see Somewhere out there is somebody Good ehh? lol. Well I'm ganna go. TTYL ~Matt 
