  Butterflies They do nothing for one. Yet they be one's closest companions in times of insecurity. Fluttering, flipping, flopping, flirting. It tingles. It's strange. They're here.
With me now. I attempt emulating nonchalance. Daniel Koh. I can! I can't; I fail. Actors fooling themselves.
Denial. I am afraid of what the future holds. I want to doctor in nikeology. Just doing it. I can't finish this. I don't know how.
Daddy told me. He really did. They're never going to do anything good for you. That I should dispose of them. Loose them. Throw them away.
But they keep coming. They never leave. An unwilling alliance. 
