  i overslept this morning. its such a terrible way to begin the day. i hadn't even woken up and gotten dressed and already i've fucked up. i woke up from a deep sleep all confused and sweating from some dream about wolves chasing me or something and i look at the clock, its 10:15 and i was supposed to be at work, a half hour drive away from my house, at 9:00 a.m. just as this is sinking in i hear the phone. its ring sounding particularly loud and accusatory. i groan and smush my face into the pillow. bill knocks on my door to give me the phone. new job isn't too pleased that i'm arriving late during my first week. they needed some reassurance that i did in fact want to work there and suggested getting a new alarm clock. i wanted to cry. i tried not to let that screw me up all day. but it just sort of set the tone and i'm not good at snapping out of moods and switching my state of mind once its set in one direction..... i need to work on that.
i think its my beds fault. it sinks in and even though its not comfortable, its hard to get out of. it smothering even though its a twin. theres bars on three sides of it. too many pillows... anyway, tommorrow i'll make up for it. i'll lay around in bed for awhile and then get up and stretch and drink some coffee and watch cory read the newspaper and pester him since i left my book at home.
and i'll play around on the computer for awhile or something. then maybe go the gym or the flea market-probably the flea market. haven't been in awhile. i miss the corn. mmm sweet juicy corn with garlic salt and lemon juice. maybe i'll play with the kids. eoin is so great. he puts me in good mood. i wish i had a toy eoin to just pull out and play with sometimes. oh shit. i still haven't called jessi to let her know i'm not going to mardi gras. need to do that. bummer. 
