  yay! today i got to go to Jesse's house to study (no not the billy madison way) like a lot...and i got to practice driving today too...i drove to his house..after we had made 3895702720 errands...that really made me angry but hey..i was going on their time..so i'll deal with it..and so yeah..we studied a lot...not nearly enougb for me...tomorrow..is my death day of studying.
and it sucks bcuz tomorrow i have sectionals until 4, and then an ortho appt at 4:45. ahhh!! hmmm...maybe i can cancel sectionals...no i can't do that...hmm...i'll just have to concentrate on those two subjects tomorrow...gosh this is real paranoia. ok maybe paranoia's sister or something..lol. but yeah...i really like the title. i mean..it's got me thinking...there are exceptions to everything in life...that's why love is the exception.
and i can tell it too...when i look into his eyes...when we play our games...when he teaches me to head bang...when we reunite 7 times. maybe it's me....maybe i'm just naive and don't know any better...too lost in every word he says...his speech is so perfect...like his own language...the most pleasant to even the common man. how every syllable has it's own uniqueness. and when he looks at me...i can't breathe...when we kiss i could just cry...this isn't some little girl crush.
this is actual love. not love that couples share to just get further into their relationship...or 3 words that people say just because they are a couple. when i say it i mean every single letter. it's forever. i will never think otherwise. it's too hard to, believe me i've tried. i know another exception to this title...forever is forever. HA! i ahve deeply thought about this and i will win!!! HA! well i can't be serious any more..i've been in a really good mood. even when i had to go home.
i always feel good when i am with him...and when i know he really loves me...i can see in his eyes..that it's going to be different...i love you jesse. with all of my heart. in the world. mostest x's two! 
