  Im hurting again. that's the irony part, I don't know why I am feeling this way.  I can feel my heart bleeding thou. its happening again. Yup.
as if a knife, slowly piercing deep through me.  Yesterday,  I went out with him and he brought up the issue of one of the gerl's group.  I was so pissed off.  yup.
 I totally lose control and the worse part,  it was only like 30%  of my anger.  bursting. it was not a full blast, then again.
 it did make an impact. I kind of settled in when he crack some jokes about the boriah tingy. hmm, he is sweet. very sweet.  Guess what.
7 new messages. Hmm. so many people I've blocked from my msn. Missed chatting with Shariffah aka yan,  been busy lately. hmmm.
 Again,  let us analyse what the hell am I suffering from. is it an infectious or contagious disease. heheheeh,  maybe I need to rest for another month or was it a pure act of jealousy. nah,
that would be the last thing.  then again,  maybe if you love the person too much,  I would just like to imagine him being wrapped up neatly, in a package, put it in my closet,
far away from all the girls as possible. At one point, I tend to become restless, twitchy and uneasy when he mentioned to me about his x. Im not a paranoid. To look at my past,
 I do have loads of Xs but then was then.  Perhaps, Ive never been ditch before. The feeling must be overwhelming. Hmm. sad to say this,
I think he still loves his x. that's it!  I couldn't sleep because I think he has feelings for his x.  I feel terrible now. inferiority lurkes again.  What a jughead,
 how can I not see this.  thats why I am feeling miserable. it has nothing to do with that masked man.  Shucks. hmmm. jiwa retak pulak saya ni.
 Hai. how love can makes you a desperado and defy the norms. merepeknyelah saya.  )  Im listening to.  Ada Apa Dengan Cinta.
apa nak jadi hafidah, yeah. away feminisme and what is left of it.
