  it has ben so long since i felt this good knowing that i'll be married.. in just 2 weeks. feel glad, relieved, happy and excited all at the same time. before, it was just nerve-wrecking, paranoid and frustrated at times. i can actually picture our lives together. but i try not to picture too much in my mind, just to keep it exciting, and not to build up too many expectations and such. just want to go with the flow. wow. i'm getting married in 2 weeks. in other news, today is the day the VSS result gonna come out. it's already 11:45 am, and yet to get the news. to tell you the truth, i'm scared out of my mind for the uncertainty, especially with my new married life and all. will i get another job in time? how will sam and i manage our finances if i were out of job? what if i didn't get it? what will happen then?... 
