  good morning. (phew. now that we got that outta the way) i've been exhausted. i really just wanted a solid night's sleep last nite. i climbed into bed at a fairly decent time...set my alarm for an early/non-ungodly time. so, i blink awake when the alarm goes off and panic sets in.
I've missed something!! i'm late!! get up!! ok, no.. ok, you're ok. whew. go back to sleep. * snooze * um.. yeah.
this pattern continued for an hour and a half... me pushing the snooze button every 9 minutes (which requires me to throw back my blankets, hop up, walk over to my dresser then walk back to bed and get in) oh yeah, that was some restful sleep. sometimes... i make stupid decisions. i would've been better off resetting the alarm and allowing myself to sleep a bit. oh well, i'm up now and i started the day with some really really loud Kanye West. heh. yeah, i'll admit.. i love the CD.
#7 is my favorite and i play it LOUD. MMmmm.. i've been cleaning cleaning because after the surgery i wanna be comfortable...not feeling like i have to do a bunch of shit here. looking around knowing i should clean...so all of that will be done today as tomorrow is the day. wee. no more talk of that.. tara's driving up today. yay!!
you've seen her name here before...she lives in another city but has a job interview in mine today!! that's fun fun. - : - : - : - : - : - : - : - lots of "soul searching" lately.. is that the term i want? i s'pose so. trying to put into action some dreams, ya'know? some friends left this morning for a week in jamaica and i'm insanely jealous.
it seems any trip i plan never works out and i end up disappointed. i'm going to the library today. lindsay reminded me 'cause there may be (surely will be) lots of hurry up and wait while in the hospital. i was thinking today...i wish i could listen to headphones while they put me out.. i wish i could listen to a song i really love as i slip into darkness. mm.. i should go clean more. write something lovely..? 
