  i stayed in the shower too long. i tried to forget hateful words between us. i shaved my legs smooth. out of the shower i rubbed warm lotion on my skin. it was slick. i smeared spicy patchouli oil up my arms down my neck.
my hands are shaky. i'm wet and slippery. i didn't brush my hair. i dreamt of tasting your sweet mouth. i selfishly dipped into myself. i offered some up but you refused. my belly ached for you. you were full. i was hungry. i loved you too much and again i am alone. tell me what to do so i can resist so i can refuse then obey. 
