  I am staying up in hopes to see my honey, but I am tired and I think the battle against fatigue is losing. I swam a mere 4 laps and AI am tired, time to build the stamina. I am going to try and swim an extra lap a day with the hopes of building up my cardio. I know that losing weight will be a long time battle for me, but it feel sgood to be on the road to doing something about it. Thanks to my sister Leila, I think I can do this. She keeps me motivated and helps when I am feeling down.
I have been depressed altely, keeping it to myself. I feel empty, but not. I feel broken. I feel lost in a world full of confusion. Show me the path to happiness, I will follow you closely...then reality sets in and I realize my own happiness depneds on me and not where others lead me to. It is where I lead myself. Change starts on the inside and works its way out. 
