  Funny: I dreamed about how fun and happy this day would be. I planned what I would do! I knew that all I wanted was...you Now, all that, all those dreams, washed away forever....yet those feelings never died. I think of you every night...just wondering...how you are doing...how things are... I used to think of you every night too, but now, it's different, it's not about how lucky I am, how nice things were...
I know I cannot get things back. SInce it's me, that slammed the door. Odd, no? I just wonder....how do you feel...what do you really think. ----------------------------- Just tell me you're alright, do not tell me what I want to hear. Tell me...tell me if you are fine now, if you are happy... But don't ever tell me to...just move along, have a sudden change of heart because...that is not going to happen.
Sometimes I just want to tell you shut up, but...I can't bring myself to it...it doesnt' feel right... HOpe all those stupid reminders of fuckign fags just go away soon. Or I, I will disappear. I will simply slip behind the scene without notice. ALl will be well, all will be well... That I can promise you. 
