  " Do you want me to tell you something really subversive?  Love is everything it's cracked up to be.  That's why people are so cynical about it.  It really is worth fighting for,  being brave for,
 risking everything for.  And the trouble is,  if you don't risk anything,  you risk even more. Erica Jong.  have you ever met someone. that knew exactly what to do at the exact right times?  its almost like they were reading your mind?  its just so. perfect.  It's crazy after all this time,  everythying has stayed the sameYour still doing fine and I'm still that battered lover you don't claim. You are walking ahead of me,  but I am crawling all the whileWhen things don't work out like you planned you turn aound and see me,
 your past,  and for a second I stop crying long enough to smile.  Turn back around and I am left in pergitory between you and hell.  Most of the time I wonder if there is even a difference,  cause my heart can't tell.  -  I wonder how it feels to know your everything I needEveryone of Cupid's arrows bounced off,
 but your was the only one that made me bleed. The poison it put in my veins is starting to wear off and I am finally coming to My vision is still blurry,  but I am slowly seeing that we're throughYou were going to let me keep playing the game of shooting myself in the chest for as long as I had bullets,  but now that you've taken my heart,  I don't have enough strength in these fingers to even pull it.
 I just walk around with this gapeing hole I'll forever wear as a badge, a window through me to serve as a reminder of what I once had.
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 i hate how when i look into your eyes i dont see me anymoreyou once called my heart your home,  but thats never morethe way you used to hold me had passion and feelingbut now when I say i love you .  you mumble it without meaningthe phone calls are shorter and further aparti should have seen the ned coming but i just didnt have the heart i hate how i look like the fool in all this mess but i just dont know what to do i guess that is what i get for falling so deep in love with you.  & nbsp;
