  Today is the 14th of June, exactly 3 months since The Breakup. I started writing again (in my blog) in May as I felt that it would be therapeutic for me to keep a journal after the first few stressful weeks. And after 3 months, it is probably a good idea to reflect back on how far I have come after that big dip in my life. And these are what I have concluded so far. 1. I think I'm doing just fine. I have not broken down (as in proper shirt-drenching crying) since at least 6 weeks ago. That is quite impressive for miss ash (yours truly that is) coz at times i can be quite emotional, and compared to my first breakup, i'm doing waaayyy better at the moment. probably because i'm 'numb' to these feelings dah? i dunno.. 2. I miss having a close friend like him, but I know that I'm better off without him. I can befriend other people, that should not be a problem. BUT yeah, I do miss his companionship now that I think about it.
ALTHOUGH.. that does not mean that i want his companionship. not at the moment anyway. 3. I don't hate men. Really, I don't. :).. In fact, quite a few of my close friends are guys, and I really appreciate their no-nonsense attitude when they're listening (or trying very hard to listen) to my problems.. or maybe whining by their definition. 4. I would not be this strong if it was not for my family and friends. and i now realize who my best friend is all along- my mom.
5. I don't believe in 'i will forgive but i won't forget'. it's noble but i just can't do it. I will forgive (sedangkan nabi maafkan umat, i know) but it takes a long time before my heart catches up with my brain. 6. I will get through this. It's only a small glitch, and everything will be ok. 
