  Good Morning, I just felt the need to vent. This is one of those times, when, I'm just down in the dumps and feeling sorry for myself. "I know get over it" I agree, but with that being said, I'm still human and feel the ups and downs of life. I just dread what faces me with my impending divorce and all that junk that goes with it. You tell yourself that this can be relatively painless, but what a bunch of crap that is people are making life changing decisions, and rethinking their future plans.
I had no intention of ever being divorced for a second time in my life, but that is exactly where I'm at. I shoulder a huge part of that responsibility, and will have to live with that. I always viewed people that have had multiple divorces as real losers, and vowed that "I" would never be divorced for a second time, spoke to soon.
This is what the Holy Spirit has been revealing to me over the last Six months. I could not have loved anyone intimately, and had any relationship that would last beyond the physical attraction that has been my problem since I was 13 years old. I have had a dozens of relationships that were nothing more than physical or at best just superficial, on the surface things. Now my wife Cindy, did her best to make me go deeper than surface stuff, but I couldn't on my own. Like Rob said the other night at house church, I never had an example of love. Anyway, Jesus has revealed that I must first Love him,and seek after him passionately in this experience love will be revealed through scripture, truth, and a deeper relationship with Jesus. Jesus is my Lover, and maybe someday, I can love a woman the way she deserves to be loved. "you know like Jesus loves" I first must discover my Jesus, and who knows he may be my lover in every sense of the word. Jesus is love right? PS: Sarah, You are in my prayers. Trebby 
