  Asthmatic Insomniac Speaks Out, pt. 2 I just realized I've never addressed the subject of insomnia here. Bizarre, seeing that I often fall prey to it. I went to sleep about 1:30. I tossed and turned and tried to wake myself up. When I did get up at 2:46 I searched frantically for enough change to buy a soda.
I felt getting up, getting a drink,and being awake for a few minutes would help. It usually does. You wouldn't believe how hard it was to find fifty cents. Thousands of pennies, very few nickels and dimes. If only the machine took Visa. The plan is that I'll get up at 8:30 am and get ready to go to Jackson, Tennessee.
I'm going to spend This Thanksgiving week with Donna. For once I'll get to meet her friends and a lot of her family who I've yet to meet. Overall, I expect this will be good. At 9:50 we will pack the car. At 1:00 I'm out of class and we'll be out of town. The hope is to be in Birmingham before rush hour.
Here's hoping I won't feel so claustrophobic. It's going to be an exciting week, though I will be busy. My goal had been to be caught up on all my work before this break, but heaven's to Betsy I'm not. Right now, I'm thinking maybe I can pull 3 B's and 4 C's. I have my doubts. I just don't want to fail anything.
Maybe I have low standards. D is for diploma. I've come to terms lately with the reality that I've not exactly pulled my weight thus far in school. I've failed a few classes. I've gotten a few D's. I could have done a lot better, but I didn't.
I'm not proud of that and I plan to do better, but I'm not making resolutions. I'm growing. I can say that much. I'm no longer going to live under the false perception that I'm one of the only ones who isn't such a good steward with school. Other people may make all A's, God bless 'em. Too much emphasis is put on scholasticism.
It's too much when there is more emphasis on it than on spiritual growth. I never wanted to be doing it just for the sake of knowledge. I never cared for making the grade. I want to show myself approved. This semester has been the beginnings of me finding motivation. So I hope and pray that I haven't failed anything.
At least not for absences. There's one class I fear this in. My only other request is that I don't fail either of my two retakes. Honestly, I'd prefer to have C's in them. Afterall, they are retakes. Yes, It's true I've been lazy and irresponsible but don't you dare think you can deduce that this is clearly the problem.
If you really are at a place in your life where you can judge me, bear with me. Thank you. My soda is gone and so am I. 
