  OK, after posting that last love letter. I had to go back and take it off... I have to figure out WHY it is therapeutic to put my inner most thoughts to text and make them public. Shaun is an extremely private man. If he knew that I was making all of this potentially very public, he would be VERY pissed off at me. After considering this... And doing a quick Google search... (I love Google, but I ain't gonna wear their shit) I found out that by typing in Sarahlaughs, my blog page comes up like 3rd on the list. This would not be good. Sarah Laughs Photography is the name of my business (like a dumb ass, I gave him one of my business cards, he won't throw it away, the man still has photos of me and love letters from when we were together ie... he doesn't throw things (about me) out) Should he have the same affinity for search engines that I do (which I believe he does) and he got curious about my business... Potentially very catastrophic. Especially considering I don't have a damn website for my business yet!
Then again, maybe I am paranoid... Not to make Shaun out to be some beast that doesn't let me share my emotions. Quite the opposite, he's always believed that our relationship is ours and no one elses. I can respect that opinion, I don't agree with it, but I respect it. I need to get off that kick anyhow... Right, ya'll don't need to know what a hopeless git I am. 
