  Are you there god? its me lena! so after this long discussion at luch about religion im left questioning my faith. what the hell is jewishness anyways? but seriously i dont know. Eileen im so sorry about being all URGish today its just that well ive been really short tempered and i dont know why.
HOLY SHIT!! ok so im waiting for my mom to pick me up from your house and the real reason i left was i was super tired i could barly stand and i needed to be alone because i was just getting annoyed of everyone as a whole. but anyways you dad comes up to me and is like so its the aneversary of your dads death! and im liike yeah *fake smile* it was crazy.
did you say something to make him say that? well im not mad at you eileen trust me. hey eileen your the only one who reads this right? tell me in your blog if so because i think im just gonna writre to you. i always feel so angsty! i dont know if thats bad hell i dont really know what angst is but if its anything like degrassi which i know it is then i am total angst. i always feel like im hanging around w/the wrong group of people 
