  oh shit, no... please God, no. this feels like my wonderful world, crashing down on me. feels like all the beautiful harmony of it all, has just come to a screeching hault. its too sudden, too soon. what the hell did i do to cause this? if i knew, id make it better. maybe its just a theory, but it fits all to well. the chain of events here is enough to terrify me unlike before. pls God, no. dont let this be the end of the most beautiful phase ever. 
