  I had a Caesar salad with shrimp and a glass of wine that was my dinner. Never mind I just ate it at 11PM. I feel kind of sick now, I don't think salad is designed to be eaten after 8PM. DS3 is upstairs asleep in his bed.
DH, DS1, DS2 are at the big Father/Son sleepover at church, probably playing dodge ball or eating chips right now. This blog site is a bit hard to navigate, I downloaded this HELLO thing but can't figure out how to get my picture on the side of the page, oh well. This shouldn't be so hard. I can usually figure these things out. I'm tired. But it is so nice to be alone, that I want to stay up just to have the solitude. I need to write an email to a relative, that I haven't been in touch with much, but should have been. I feel somewhat afraid to be open with her, she'll talk to other relatives and tell them what I am up to, not that it is very exciting, just she doesn't tell me anything they are doing. So I guess I feel on guard, and don't know what to say. Or I could just not answer, wait till next Christmas, and say all the blah blah stuff. I'm not sure why it is so hard to be real. I'm going to watch the news, a shame they killed another American. How horrible. I am reading this Nora Roberts crap right now. It is ok, but I now there are much better books out there.
I have been so tired I can only read a couple of pages and then I wake up sometime with the light on and the book on my face. I have time alone and now I can't think of anything to do, or all I want to do is just go to sleep. DH liked his Father's day stuff, but presents don't get him super excited like everybody else here.
Hot day tomorrow the weather man is saying. It is great, so nice to have summer, it feels like a vaction. Too bad we can't go anywhere! I have to stay focused on January... Disneyland. There was a bad accident on the Highway on the way home from church tonight. A truck or van (it was hard to tell) was all mangled in the ditch. The kind of accident that gives you chills when you see it. That's it, I can't stay awake any longer. G'night zzzzzzzzzzzzzz 
