  My title is tow- fold. nbsp;  There is everybody,  and where is everybody. nbsp;
 Where is everyone on here? nbsp;  Why haven't they been blogging?  & nbsp;  And where is everyone when I need them?
nbsp;  & nbsp;  Yes,  I'm alone primarily because I CHOOSE to be alone. nbsp;
 But this is different. nbsp;  I'm alone right now. nbsp;  And I feel ( yes,
 more EMOTIONS)  completely without real,  true friends. nbsp;  Know what I mean? nbsp;
 Kristie does,  I know. nbsp;  & nbsp;  Not that any of my current friends aren't as real as could be.
nbsp;  It's just that I'm made differently. nbsp;  & nbsp;  Here's a good example.
nbsp;  Anyone evern read 'Anne of Green Gables? '& nbsp;  Kindred spirits. nbsp;
 That's what I don't have. nbsp;  In fact,  the only time I've really ever had a kindred spirit. nbsp;  They just disappeared.
nbsp;  Was is beacuse of me? nbsp;  Who knows. nbsp;  Was it that they were in all reality just flakes?
nbsp;  Could be. nbsp;  & nbsp;  Right now,
 God,  I could use someone who already knows what's in my head. nbsp;  They can see it,  call it out,  and confront me with it.
nbsp;  My friend Craig is like that. nbsp;  Problem? nbsp;  He's in Alabama.
nbsp;  And he can be a bit of a flake at times. nbsp;  & nbsp;  Yes,
 God. nbsp;  I know You are all of the above. nbsp;  But I could really use You using someone here on earth to do all of these things. nbsp;
 ( Sounds like I'm choosing my own blessings!  & nbsp;  I need someone in my face,  in front of me,
 who knows what is going on and can help me think through all these things without me feeling like they are unequal to me. nbsp;  I need someone here on my level to hash these things through with me that won't come at me in an authorative manner,  " spiritual"  manner,
 or ignorant manner.  & nbsp;  Man,  that sounds harsh! nbsp;
 But I don't mean it that way. nbsp;  I just mean I need someone completely unbiased by other opinions but has enough knowledge and wisdom to wisely help guide me through this time. nbsp;  Make any sense?  &
nbsp;  God,  I honestly don't care whether or not it is a man or a woman,  same age or not. nbsp;  I just need someone THERE with me.
nbsp;  Maybe they don't even have to talk,  or maybe they have wisdom enough not to talk at all. nbsp;  & nbsp;
 I'm pushy,  I know. nbsp;  Lord,  help. nbsp;
 That's all I know what to say. nbsp;  Help.
