  I was looking at this list Ms. Alliece, my spiritual momma from St. Louis, had me make up. Here it is: 5 Things I Don't Like ABout Myself: 1. My Mouth 2. Self-Esteem 3. Unorganized Personal Life 4. Time Management 5.
Thought Process 5 Things I Want To Change: 1. Depression to Steady Joy 2. Dependency on Men for Self-Image 3. Thought Process 4. Organization 5. How I Deal with Confrontation I'm happy to say that God has been working miracles in these areas already.
And you know how it all started? With Him MAKING me go to Ms. Alliece and TELL her all my junk. I let every single thing out there, recognized it, and renounced it. Cleansing Stream has a similar process, but Ms. Alliece started it all for me. God, thank You for keeping me sane! And thanks for working on me.
I know there is a lot to be done in order for you to get me into the right timing, frame of mind, and condition to be able to do Your work. I'm just amazed that You'd even want to use a poor, pitiful wretch like me!!!!!! Thank You!!! ****Mini Update**** Whoa... This week has been hard!!!!! That's the only word I can think of to describe it.
Hard! Jason re-entered my life and I went to bits for a little while. Dad attacked me and I told him where I stand on everything. And I'm still here! God, there is so much. So much.
I've been sick for the past 2 1/2 months and it's coming to a head. God, please heal me or show me how to GRACIOUSLY live with this. It's confusing me. I don't ache for Jason anymore. I don't fear being alone anymore. And I know that since I've said that now, satan will try to attack me with those emotions, but I know how to deal with them now.
Thanks to Cleansing Stream. I'm not worried about not having a husband right now. I'm not worried about not being in Africa yet. I'm not even worried about not having my own place yet or a job that pays well. I'm just not worried. And satan can't take that away from me. 
