  Random Do you ever have those days where you want to say something, but have no clue what it is? So I'm there right now, but I figure if I just write, something may come out of it? Doubtful but it could happen right? I was on the train the other day and I was thinking about how much I wished I could play the piano, and how when I was little, I used to pretend my toy chest was a piano. I would play for hours, and I would imagine that I was playing for the whole world, and that people were so amazed that a girl so young could play so well.
Then I thought how much I miss Missy land. I loved to day dream, the only time I ever get that now is when I'm having Missy time in front of the mirror, this is where I put on music and stare at myself for hours, or I dance or play dress up, I've done this ever since I was a child. My mother used to say there was never I mirror I couldn't stare at myself in. This is still true today. I think it's my favorite thing to do, is listen to music and dance in the mirror, or play dress up. I don't know. It's sort of silly for a 24 year old, but I'm also an actress, so maybe not so odd for that type of person. I sometimes will stop in front of a mirror, and catch myself and go, "you know what? You really are beautiful.
" Sometimes when nobody's home I'll make up songs, I remember on the Fourth of July one year I was hanging out with this girl and I told her that I was a song writer, I was like seven or eight, and I sang her my songs. And she made me go sing it to her parents, who I remember being very impressed by my song about, "how pretty the stars in the sky are, and how much the twinkle and shine, that it makes me want to cry. " But my music career was crushed by my mother when I belted out my rendition of a classic Michael Bolton song, and she began to Hysterically laugh at me.
I could have been somebody, but my career was crushed. So now I can only sing alone. Thanks Mom. My other favorite thing to do is shower in the dark, it just helps me to think. I wonder what odd things other people do when no one else is watching them? 
