  So we were all hanging out at amy's last ight and the topic of children came up. I mean at our age normal people think about haveing kids.
anyway we all agreed that we have been feeling the biological urge to have kids.  Why do womyn feel this way?  Do men feel this way?  Do men get in there mid- twenties and think to themselves.  you know i would really like my girlfriend to get pregnant?  somehow I doubt it,  I'm not say ing this doesn't happen b/ c I'm sure some men feel that way.
 But I now for me it's like this deep seeded feeling in the back of my head and the pit of my ovaries,  that I constantly have to retell myself all the reasons I don't REALLY want kids.  I'm not responsible enough for a child for one thing. And for fuck sakes that's what I do all fucking day long!  And if I ever had kids they would be so fucked up.  And I just know I would tell them all these lies to see if they believe me and then laugh about it to myself when they do. heh. heh anyway then we were talking about if we ever have kids we would never be able to go anywhere and do anything. Except amy. she has alll these sisters that would take her kid is she wanted to have a night out.
So me and alisha deceded that amy should fill all of our biological urges and have some kids that we can play with and hang out with. and then go to our childless home!  I mean,  it would really be more for alisha,  she has little to no contact with children on a daily basis.  I guess I have the best of both worlds,  I get to hang out with kids all day and then get to do my own thing the rest of the time!
 that really is a sweet deal.  If I could only make my ovaries see how great we got it,  then I couild just stop having my period all together b/ c it's not going to get my anywhere I want to go ,  if you know what I mean.  Wouldn't that be great if you just have a one- on- one with your ovaries " hey you can stop producing eggs for awhile I really don't want to reproduce"
 and they would be likr " no problem"  And just like that it's all over. painless.  yeah. when I was a child I really thought there were little men inside my body running the whole operation.  I would eat some food the first guy would send down my throat and then to the next stomach guy and he would do his thing and so on. they would all talk about me and you know,  do there thing. I would actually picture this little factory in my body and when I would get sick I would thing it's b/
c I did something to upset one of them. I was a weird kid.
